Pointless things.

The meeting wasn't as long or as bad as I thought it was going to be. They didn't give a lot of details of what was going to happen. Just when it would be, that we would all leave from the church, that it changed their lives, etc etc. I really doubt it's going to have an effect on me and if anything I think it's going to push me away.

I come from an incredibly religious family (largely my mom) and from when I was very little I always had Catholicism hammered into my head. I also had traditionalism hammered into my head so needless to say I grew up really hating Christianity and having an unfortunately skewed perspective of it. I guess you could say I sort of had the stereotypical rebel without a cause look of it, assuming it was just inherently hateful, self absorbed and superficial. I saw the Westboro Baptist church as the sort of typical Christian and that they just all hated everyone who was different.

Fortunately I learned better, and thankfully my parents are nowhere near that bad but it is still something that is a bit of a sensitive subject for me for a number of reasons. I don't know what I believe in but I feel that's something I need to find on my own, or at least with people who understand me better and are more open minded which I don't think I'll find in my church, or at this workshop. I'm committed to it though, so here is hoping that I will be pleasantly surprised.

I'll go into more detail when I'm home, for now I just wanted to write something.